Category: 1-The Beginning

Post 16 – Voices in my head

One Saturday morning as I was preparing to go over to Seth’s house to paint, I felt a little too excited to see him. Mindful of my feelings, guilt slowly crept in. My feelings for Seth were growing and I feared I might lose control and do something I...

Post 15 – Pursuing me

Nothing further happened with Seth during our first painting session at his house. After a few moments of sitting closely together on the floor, critiquing his painting, anxiety took over my feelings of arousal. My gut told me to keep a good distance from him, and so I listened....

Post 14 – Low Libido?

Within six months of meeting Myles, we got married. Time went by, and it became disappointingly apparent that I had a problem with my sex drive. Seems I had lost it! I couldn’t understand it! Desire was never a problem with past boyfriends! I considered myself a sexual being,...

Post 13 – Painting with Seth

The day of painting with Seth was finally here! The plan was to spend an afternoon painting in his studio.  Arrived at his house, I followed Seth into the basement. He told me his wife was away for the afternoon so there would be no distractions.  The main basement...

Post 12 – Laughing and crying over tampons!

Over a month past since my hysterectomy and I was feeling much better! The incision was healing nicely and my energy levels were up. I couldn’t exercise or do any kind of physical activity so I decided to go through my closet and get rid of some old clothes....

Post 11 – Texting with Seth

A few weeks after my surgery, Seth began sending me text messages. Anytime he saw an interesting work of art, a painting or sculpture, he took a picture and sent it to me. He asked what I thought of the art and we briefly critiqued it. I felt excited...

Post 10 – Recovery

One morning I woke up with a sharp pain in my abdomen. It had been almost two weeks since the surgery and recovery was going well. By lunch time the pain was intense. It felt as though I was being stabbed in the stomach with a sharp object. It...

Post 9 – The Surgery

I developed uterine fibroids  after my first pregnancy. I had all the usual symptoms including the more severe ones which need medical attention: Pelvic pressure and pain Anemia Swelling or enlargement of the abdomen The morning of my scheduled abdominal hysterectomy I sat at the edge of my bed debating...

Post 8 – The Green Door Restaurant, Part 2

“Would I like to have more children?” I repeated the question. “No, I can’t…I mean…I no longer…” Stumbling in my words, my mind raced. Of course, he wasn’t proposing we have a child together! That would be altogether absurd! This was simply a misunderstanding, a miscommunication! That said, in...

Post 7 – The Green Door Restaurant, Part 1

I arrived early at the restaurant and grabbed a seat by the window. I heard good reviews about this place so was eager to try the food. A buffet-style vegetarian restaurant, the food is seasonal, local, and the menu offers a broad range of internationally inspired dishes. Myles took...